It’s suddenly sunny but chilly, and chillier than the temperature claims. One of those deceptive days where you might be fooled into thinking it’s not bad out at all.
Chicago likes to play games with us that way.
Today I’m thinking about the absence left after a death, the human-shaped hole that time, like water, may fill in but will always leave a bit of a depression.
Take the pun or leave it, either way, it’s kind of a weird place for one but that’s how the words worked out.
We, who are living, have to keep on, because that is the way that life works, and has always worked, ever since there was life. It’s unrelenting in that way.
I’m going into my second loop around without my mom here, though it’s kind of like second-and-a-half because she was sick for so long. There are no more firsts, but somehow it doesn’t make it all more routine.
It is what it is, as they say.
I don’t really have a point or any deep conclusion, because what conclusions can we mere mortals draw? What suggestions, what solutions?
All that lies in the mythical realms of alchemy and we all know they always go awry.
But I pledge to share with you my thoughts, and for today, these are they, the thoughts we don’t really talk about out loud because we don’t want to bum anyone else out.
We all have such days, and such days without the down thoughts, so they don’t make us flawed, they make us people.
Anyway, that’s it for me today, have a wonderful Tuesday.
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