It’s very sunny, pretty mild for November. I remember November being largely gray, but that doesn’t seem to be true anymore. Many things seem not to be true anymore.
I really don’t want to write a post about things people should already know, not in a week where the best part, I kid you not, was going to the dentist.
The dentist.
Granted, my dentist is spectacular, my dad and I drive an hour each way to keep seeing him, and my hygienist is also the best. The whole practice is lovely.
But it’s the dentist.
At least there, I broke their streak of surprise problems they’d found, up until me. So like I said.
Highlight.
We are all going to have to find small ways to get through this, I think. Life goes on, even when life is a toxic waste dump filled with landmines and smug men who are not remotely bound by the rules they set for others.
I’m not sure what “through this” means, by the way. I cannot tell you how long “this” will be.
Evil simply seems to have a stronger force of will than good, is what it appears to boil down to, and if that doesn’t make you wonder about the order of powers in the universe, nothing will.
What do I know. I haven’t really eaten properly or slept properly in ages.
Every time I think too hard, I get nauseated.
Apparently a lot of us don’t fit in this world. We’d rather help than harm; being the “winner” with all the things in the universe to have doesn’t give us a sense of grim resolve.
We think there’s enough for everyone, and the proper way to go about things is to share.
I guess we were programmed wrong at the factory.
My callous disregard is reserved for the people who have earned it, and I cannot turn my empathy off for the people who haven’t. So many people, on a knife’s edge already, now feeling even that pulling away.
It’s going to leave a mark.
Let people say what they need to say, vent how they need to vent, especially if you’re not facing the same terrors they are. It’s not for you to judge how real they may become. It’s not for you to demand the order of emotions.
Perhaps the least important things at this point in time are feelings.
Because what you’re seeing aren’t people’s feelings. You’re seeing survival at its planning stages.
Now is the time for you to become the best of yourself for the people who deserve it.
Have a calm Friday and whatever kind of weekend best serves you.
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