Heavy clouds in the sky today, I’m not sure if we’re due more snow but it looks like it. We got a little last night, just enough to turn the ground mostly white while still brownish green in patches.
The wind is loud.
I can’t decide if I need a sweatshirt or not, I’m on the edge of being cold. Not quite cold, not quite comfortable. If I put on another layer, I’m sure I’ll be too hot in a matter of minutes.
It’s one of those kinds of days.
Lately I find myself dissatisfied with everything, having hoped for more but here we are. I’m sure it’s one of those dodgy stages of grief, the kind that aren’t enumerated or discussed, one that falls between two others, one that’s highly steeped in irritability.
I am definitely irritable.
My patience seems paper thin right now, annoyances magnified, my feelings on the smudgier side of gray.
Hopefully it’s not only me, though that sounds a little misery loves company I guess. And it’s not misery exactly.
I think it’s profound disappointment.
Every day I see more evidence of how awful people are, as a rule. I used to think they were exceptions, but not now, not these days.
And I don’t like things looking so bleak. I don’t like things feeling so bleak.
I’m not really sure who does, aside from the people who enjoy making things bleak, and we’re right back into the profound disappointment again.
I’d like to be back to upbeat, quirky posts. I love upbeat quirky. I think a lot of us do, it’s our comfort place, our happy place.
And we’re going to need a lot of happy place, I imagine.
I’ll get there eventually, I guess, because doom and gloom isn’t good for anyone. Constant irritation isn’t good for anyone.
Especially the irritating.
Moods may come and settle in like the weather, heavily and threatening. That happens, that is life in the human form.
But also, like the weather, though it may linger, eventually, eventually, it changes.
Have a great Friday and a wonderful weekend.
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