It’s sunny today with a haze, most likely of pollution, the air quality is poor. It feels very Fringe to have to check the air quality regularly, but here we are.
Here we are.
Depressing, and somehow the onus has been pushed to individuals, while the real issue is industry. But I think we aren’t supposed to stay that aloud.
So many things we aren’t supposed to say aloud.
Cigna eventually responded to my tweet about the insurance, wanting me to contact them directly and I can’t shake the feeling that doing so will make it worse, that somehow they will find a way to increase the cost or alter my coverage or…something. No money-making enterprise should have this much control over our literal lives and deaths.
The reality is the relationship is and feels adversarial.
It’s a wide, weird world and it’s not always easy to tell who or what is on your side. Even the services we pay for often try to give us the least they can for the most they can charge.
Value used to have…value.
But I am in a state of very reduced energy, still trying to recharge after that whole ordeal with my mom and her eventual death, with this strange health situation I still can’t pinpoint to a specific cause, though I have suspicions.
Among the many, many, many battles to wage, I have to be selective. Too much attention in any particular direction and my shaky house of cards will tumble. So I will think about it.
It’s strange how rare help really is in this new, cold world. Small things, big things. It takes a lot of energy to do everything yourself.
So if you are a person who has to plod through, each step a step you and only you have to take, today I commend you.
Today I see you.
It’s not easy, and no one notices that.
Have a wonderful Wednesday, you’re doing great.
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