It’s sunny and cool, a bit of a breeze, no storms until tomorrow, and it feels, genuinely, like a lackadaisical summer day.
Even with the world on fire.
It’s weird how we can accept such a dichotomy.
On my end, a decision has been made and all is now barreling ahead, a train I could not stop even if I wanted to, and I don’t think I want to. I know it’s vague; it will be unvague soon enough, I suspect.
If you are the worrying type as am I, there is no need to worry, there is nothing bad or wrong, and the blog is as safe as a blog could be.
But a conflict that has raged for ages within in me is now resolved, or mostly resolved, and whether for the better or worse, I can only say that it is resolved and no longer picking at me, so I’m thinking it’s for the better.
I’ve found myself saying frequently lately that there are no perfect answers, just answers, which I think was the one thing I actually liked from White Lotus but I’m not sure that’s where I got it. I definitely didn’t make it up.
It’s entirely perspective-altering, though. There are no perfect answers, only answers.
I found an answer.
And I will ease into it, adjust to it, let it fill the space available. Perhaps there was a better answer, perhaps there was a better door, perhaps there was a better fork, but the one I took is the one I took.
What ifs are a kind of glue beneath our feet; they are transparent obstacles to trip over. What ifs are the bedrock of self-doubt.
What ifs can undo anything, shake anything, hollow the happiness out of anything.
I’m really good at what ifs.
But I’m going to try not to occupy myself with them. I am going to accept this path and let the others fall away.
There’s enough to worry about these days.
Anyway, that’s it for me, I hope you have an excellent, smooth Friday and a wonderful weekend.
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