It’s very gray, we’re supposed to get rain and it’s nearly 30 degrees cooler than yesterday. I knew we couldn’t believe it.
Looks pretty windy, too.
Yesterday I was working on one of my building brick models. It’s an off-brand and though the model itself is cool, it’s not holding together as well as I’d like.
I moved the table I was working on, and it fell, entire layers coming off, pieces scattering. Definitely not the plan.
And I was nearly done.
I can’t help but wonder if that is all life is, a series of disasters, large and small, spaced out in a pattern only the universe knows for sure.
In the scheme of things, it’s a smaller frustration. I can put it back together, I put it together in the first place, after all. But I guess with everything as it stands now, each inconvenience is multiplied by all the thousands of other things, many far more serious that spontaneous disassembly.
I kind of love that phrase. It sounds like the way a company might word a horrific accident on company property to avoid liability.
“Unfortunately, Rick suffered from spontaneous disassembly, though it’s this company’s position that it had to do with an unhealthy diet and lack of exercise and not the industrial shredder. Rumors that the safety guard has been “out for repair” for six years will not be tolerated. Parts are on backorder.”
If we’re not laughing, we’re crying.
And it has broad application:
“Every day, it seems, we are fighting emotional spontaneous disassembly.”
Aren’t we just.
Our circles of control have gotten very small, I’m afraid, and I think we need to hear that we can only do what we can do. That’s not defeatist or giving up.
That’s reality.
Yesterday I talked about the concern of wading into toxic positivity, and I certainly don’t want to go feed the sharks at the other end of that pool. But we only have so many nuts and bolts and staples and tape and glue to keep the whole thing together.
Otherwise, you know what happens.
Spontaneous disassembly.
Anyway, that’s it for me this Tuesday. I hope you have a lovely day with very little to no falling apart at all.
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