It’s very foggy today, foggier than yesterday, so much so I’m keeping an eye on the trees to make sure they’re not approaching.
I know a bunch of you get it.
Thank you again, Deb, for the coffee, which I was notified about while drinking coffee, which is a bit of a coffee inception I’d say! If you were trying to ease my annoyance, you did the most amazing job!
Yesterday, on top of all the being annoyed, I had the dentist, and the thought of it usually fills me with anxiety, even for weeks ahead. But yesterday I wasn’t anxious.
Except about being late, because my dentist is in Arlington Heights and there is major, major, MAJOR work going on I didn’t factor in. I went with my dad, we had lunch out there, returned some things to a Costco out there, and finally faced the journey back.
But I couldn’t get over how that constant nip of anxiety simply was absent. I’ve been seeing my dentist for ages, first when he was much closer, and then trying a dentist at his old practice and vowing I didn’t care HOW far he was, no more of that.
And my hygienist, who was brand new when I started seeing her, and now she’s got the professional confidence to match the skills she always had. Everyone in the office is so kind, so welcoming. Round and round the calendar goes, and the years pile on and everyone’s life changes in chunks in good and bad ways, or not at all and a routine is a routine.
So is it just that they’ve removed all those markers that make it stressful? Or have I gotten over that stress? Is my dentist’s office magic?
Maybe.
Probably.
It’s interesting to find something that bothers you, a constant splinter, a stone in your shoe that will not be removed, can, one day, vanish.
You don’t see it go or feel it go, you just somehow know it’s gone.
And, of course, that was this time. Next time might be different, it’s never great to put these expectations on ourselves.
But maybe it’s possible, if you peel away layers or add them as you need, if you cushion or empty, maybe it’s possible to erode their power until they do not exist at all.
And with that I wish you a wonderful Wednesday.
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